So what is this crazy woman doing?

This is my first (real) of hopefully many blog posts. I want to say right off the bat, thanks for stopping by and taking a look. Feel free to leave comments and such. I do want to set a few guidelines.  This site is MY blog. It is about the journey I am on, and my life and struggles with Mental Illness and other health issues that have made me disabled. Please respect that. Negative comments and bashing will NOT be tolerated. I do welcome open discussion and debates, though.

I ask that you refrain from mentioning very specific drugs, dosages  and or specific therapies, unless you are sharing your own experience. I.e. saying “I have had luck with a mood stabilizer taking it twice a day.” but not “I take Prozac, what do you take?” If it is a common drug, like an OTC, that is fine, like mentioning aspirin,  Tylenol or Motrin/ibuprofen, Robitussin for a cold. But please, unless you are a licensed physician, do not give medical advice for treatments.

That being said, I started off at 18 working in EMS. I continued on into Law Enforcement, and after some severe injuries ended up teaching at a large well-known medical school. I specifically taught patient care and chronic illness. But I will not recommend specific treatment advice as I am not treating you. I will be willing to answer general questions you may have about treatments and drug therapies, but really the information is quite readily available on these intertubes! I highly recommend

I have some (possibly lofty) visions for my blog. I want to help stop the stigma of mental illness, at a minimum.  But I would really love to be able to help just one person on their own journey by sharing my life story. All I’ve ever wanted to do was to help other people. My illness has really side tracked my plans (you know the saying, you want to make God laugh, tell  him your plans).

So, who am I really? I am a 30 something Okie transplant in Michigan. I have not had the easiest or best life, nor have I had the worst life. Although some of the trials I’ve endured may make you cry, or feel for me, DO NOT PITY ME! That’s not what I’m out here for! I only share in the hopes that someone else who may have been or is going through something similar, may find strength.

I have survived cancer twice (6 years free). I have an auto immune disorder, nerve conduction pathway disorder, asthma, chronic migraines, endometriosis and poly cystic ovarian syndrome (just about non existent since my hysterectomy) , IBS, SVT, both high and low blood pressure, and the dreaded high cholesterol.  A history of anxiety, Bipolar (mostly mania). ADHD, borderline personality disorder, closed head injury, and please don’t get me started on all the normal injuries I’ve had!

I am also a survivor of domestic violence (both when I was 18 and again in my late 20’s, and I’m ashamed to admit it, after being a domestic violence investigator for a police department). I also have one failed suicide attempt. No one is still quite able to figure out how I’m still alive, and with almost no lasting issues.

So I invite you to join me on my road to recovery. And to also look back at just how far I’ve come! So welcome to my crazy little corner of the world, and please keep your hands and feet inside the ride while we are in motion!



The most dreaded thing seen on a website…

I know how irritated I feel when I am on a website and just about every page says “under construction” but there never seems to be any progress. So, with a heavy heart and my head hung in shame, I have an announcement. THIS SITE IS UNDER CONSTRUCTION!

I promise that I am working on setting up my page so it matches what I have pictured in my head. But first, I have to learn what the heck it is that I’m doing!

Now don’t everyone faint in shock on me here! Yes, I am in my 30’s, and yes I had a computer in my house growing up BEFORE internet! I’ve really only ever used the computer for work or school. I’m pretty savvy with Face Book  more than competent with web based email. I love Wikipedia and Goggling  not that I always have a reason to search, it’s more like my unending quest for knowledge. Just this past year I’ve gotten the hang of Twitter, and I even dabble on YouTube (although for the life of me, I have no clue what posses some people to post some of the videos!), I’ve only ever been on Craig’s List for a maximum of 5 hours, never been on Ebay  and I only know that you can buy arts and craft stuffs on Etsy.

With that being said, this last year I purchased something online for the first time, I joined Twitter, and I started this blog almost a year ago. Not that I posted anything (I honestly forgot about it). And, I’ve also only read two other peoples blogs. So really, I have no clue what I’m doing here!

Well, I’m off to learn how to make this page look like I want, you know since it’s mine and all!